Bad news everyone. Not unpredictably, Austin has resigned from our venture. It's another sign, in a long series of signs, that our little enterprise here is crumbling.
I blame myself. Between the new job, wedding plans, and pure depression that the first two are causing CWS to fail, I have let things go, probably too far to save. I just don't have the time and energy to invest to keep things afloat. I did have some money, which I put into building us a facility, but that alone was not enough. I needed to be able to put in the time, to provide the energy, and I could not do that. For everybody, and in particular to Austin, who I feel I used in a last desperate grasp to keep things going, I appologize.
Because I can not put in the time myself, I have been trying to delegate to those people who do/did supposedly have time, people like Fred and Elliott and Stefen, but that did not work. Without some strong central leadership and investment, I don't know why I thought it would, but I don't know what else to do. I just can't keep up right now. I spent my time building tools, updating websites, mucking with servers- mainly because I can do those things at work. I guess I should have spent more time writing and giving feedback or answering emails or IMs or whatever. But I can't do that at work and doing it after work is causing friction with the wife.
What I really needed was a reason to drag myself to the office. But there was nobody there. I built it, and nobody came, except for Elliott, that is, but then again I have free internet there... We worked so hard getting the demo out for EV4, and then the publisher has sat on it. I emailed him constantly, I've called more times than I care to think about. I get no traction, yet no denials. Letting the project lose momentum in the first place was the biggest mistake I could have made, but I just burned out. "You've lost that loving feeling, whoa-oo."
But I don't want to give up! I don't! We have some great projects in the works. I want to play Midnight Oil, I do! I want to play EV4! I don't want to be stuck with an office going to waste! But I'm out of ideas here folks.
So, what do we do? What do I do? Sublease the space? Shutdown the projects? Let them go on in Zombie mode? Consolidate back to just me? Drop EV4, go to Midnight Oil, hope that kicks up some interest, and just start recruiting local? Hope that people come back when Cal Poly comes back in session?